Goodbye Teddy..... TT_TT

Kristen just left to take Teddy to her house. Kristen is going to be Teddy's new foster mom now. On one hand, I'm a little relieved to see Teddy go. She was a lot of work and did quite a bit of damage. But all in all, I'm bawling my eyes out. I thought it would mostly be because I'm sad to see her go, but surprisingly that's not why I'm so upset. When the behaviorist put Teddy in the back of her car, Teddy was scared shitless. Literally, she defecated out of fear. I've only seen her do that twice. She was terrified! And as her foster parents, me and Chris are the ones she was looking to on how to react to this terrifying situation. But instead of being there for her, we let people she didn't know drive off with her. I feel like just when she was finally able to trust us, we betray her. I betrayed her. And I know that's silly, dogs don't hold grudges or think like that. But she was terrified and instead of helping her, I stood there watching and let her worst nightmare come true. At least when I returned Jack, I knew he would be ok. But Teddy's hurting and I'm not there for her any more and THAT'S what pains me most. TT_TT